I think I have too many friends. It has never been an issue before. Just lately things have been getting on my nerves. I've been going through a lot of self-realizations lately. I'm fucking picky. Today I spent 20 minutes in the sock department of wal mart looking for a specific type of sock. I hate socks. I will only wear one certain type. Peds extra low cut. I ended up only getting 4 pairs, because thats all they had. The thought of buying, and wearing another type of sock made me feel so wrong and kinda sick. I test people. Constantly, you probably don't even know I'm doing it. It comes off as being really judgemental. I kind of am judgemental though, because I jump to conclusions. Always. If I'm in a fight with someone I purposely try to make them angry. I find that when someone is angry they are much more apt to tell the truth. I hate being lied to. I also hate being ignored, and being treated like a time bomb. If you piss me off I will get over it too soon. One of my greatest weaknesses. I can't stay angry. I also like to constantly feel in control. If I feel out of control, I get pissed. The only exception is if its a qualified person. For example. I wouldn't want to fly my own plane or perform my own surgery. This is what college is for. Sometimes I want to lock my self in my room and not come out for days, but other times I feel like being in the middle of a crowd. I constantly contradict myself.
i miss justin too. and nate.
fuck
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